You know that the minute you go “home for the holidays” the triggers are coming. Even the most independent, mature, and responsible of us can get easily triggered by our family members. Beyond truly serious family dynamics (abuse – physical or emotional, addiction, verbal altercations and beyond) – which I will not be touching on […]
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[ emotional procrastination ]
Like many high-performing, badass women, I “ain’t got time” for most things. Close-mindedness Slow walkers Fuckboys The patriarchy Your bullshit But sometimes…I even don’t have time to emote. I can feel tears welling or an old wound reopened, but everyone now and again…I save it for later. Like a bag of M&Ms that takes me a […]
My stress, it strangles…
My stress, oh my stress, she tries to strangle me from inside. See she’s got a tight grip on me, and pulls in closer the more anxious I get. She chokes my voice back with her coarse, grating hands – closing my throat so I can’t speak my peace or call for help. She tightens […]
Sometimes, you gotta turn off your brain.
I hit a tipping point the other night. My brain had just reached its limit. Pure brain meltage. A skull of lava. I hadn’t performed open heart surgery. Or discovered a new element. Or even done any recent writing. In fact, I’d been having an amazing time visiting home with parents, relaxing and eating and […]
Every January, I think I have no friends
It’s mostly the cabin fever. And that everyone is sick. Or hibernating in bed. I live in #Chiberia, after all. (That’s what we call Chicago in the winter for those who don’t know). But without fail. Every year. Around January. ….I THINK I HAVE NO FRIENDS. Zero. No friends. A friendless loser. And not a cool […]